Friday, March 14, 2008

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay......

Tree
People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence? During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said,
"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.

Wind
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Moral
In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....
Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.
There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.
It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available.
It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
WHAT'S Your SAY on this????

3 comments:

Ravinder Singh said...

For TREE:--- At the end of the day, if Tree hasn't decided to pull her over or even stand by her when Leaf needed someone (even as a friend); Tree not had any right to say n feel that he liked her in any sense. He liked her for what? Was that for her cries, was that for her staring at him always, was that for the way she adored him for 3 years! Tree didn't lked her at all. If he had, they cud hav been together forever!! Tree can only regret for what he had missed and not for what he really believed in for no use.......

It cud hav been TREE, far before 3 years of wait(or even at the nic of time) to tell LEAF "Don't DEPART". The next moment wud had been of LEAF n TREE both.


For LEAF:---- Leaf had her own side. Tree's Girlfriends bothered her for 3 years. Tree's not looking at her at all made her cry. LOVE IS BLIND. Its TRUE. Yes it is, but to the end when it comes your door, just welcome it, Embrace it with open arms. For Life! it doesn't giv opportunities in LOVE so many times. Leaf's LOVE wud hav been real; no doubt; but it wsn't supported by the feelings that cud hav made her wishes true. Leaf shouldn't have waited long to tell TREE about her feelings, if she really wanted to make him into her life!.

It cud hav been Leaf too, to tell TREE "I don't want to DEPART". The next moment wud had been of LEAF n TREE both.


For WIND:---- Wind has the virtue of blowing by default. It wud try to pursue what comes it way. The feeling that made Wind to pursue Leaf wasn't wrong. Sometimes the better side of it lies in being the best Pal when u see your love crying n waiting for which cud never happen. Wind did the thing what he got in his pursuit. Ventured by the fruit of fate, Wind got blessed by the Leaf's Love.

It cud hav been WIND too, to tell TREE n LEAF both "I wud Pursue what comes my way, so both of you better hold each other if you don't want to DEPART". The next moment wud had been of LEAF n TREE both.

"LEAVES OF THOSE TREES DON"T DEAPRT WHO LEARN THE ART OF HOLDING ON TO EACH OTHER, EVEN WHEN THE WIND PURSUES, but well within TIME"

MORAL OF THE STORY (from every angle): -



"LOVE IS ALWAYS IN THE AIR". The tactic lies in finding it right when u need it most. Love has the rare quality that it doesn't matches with age, time, religion. So it is better when u feel the fragrence of LOVE within yourself, don't wait! find d direction of it. And go grab it because when time lapses what is left is just a hard known fact, "I missed it". Its not about waiting for the right time, its about finding the right person, who likes n understands you the way YOU like n understands yourself.



Ask youself that whether you want to miss it? only for getting that what is written in your fate n crying behind it.

OR

You will go n grab your LOVE because you know "that right person in your life cud be this only n you don wanna wait for someone else to purse just because of its virtue of doing so"

Your want/desire now must take priority over what is available or wud be available sometime in future. The decision is yours!!!!

Ravinder Singh

Anonymous said...

Ravi - The Turbanator,

The blog is simply awesome.It simply relates so well to the aura of love that at a moment you began to feel that it's your own story.I am sure each and every reader must have felt this,at least I felt so.

Superb words used to describe the most intricate feelings-it cud not get any better than this.Hats off.I see the author of this blog maturing into a budding writer,if he wants to pursue his passion.You surely have 'inaugrated nuisance in lives of people around you'.
A gem in friends,towering personna,down to earth human being,a serious blogger in making.

Kudos..!!
Keep up the good work dude.

Gaurav Kawatra

Anonymous said...

RAVI- Mr. Nuisance
Ravi is a very pious, very simple very sweet guy and is really gem of the Person...
He is so expected that you can easily feel what he is going to do next moment... (Not talking about his stupid inclinations) :)

He is predictable and very much expected in his own simple ways, simple living and very mature thinking I must say…

We are friends from last 3 years… We met during our Masters and ever since then I call him as ‘Veerji...

One specialty of Ravi is that “He is a very foodie person... love to talk a lot while having food…”

"His dance is talk of the town... Kajra Re Kajra Re tere kaale kaale naina..." ;)

He is a very understanding… person… take a problem to him and see how coolly and calmly he will listen and look after that…
Please Don’t forget to take his….” JASPAL BHATTI’s types advices”

His blog is the mirror of heart... Which he has put in front of all his loved ones…

From the Ravi creation book I liked these lines most…

I want to be the breeze,
So that she can relax,
So that her warmth is first felt in me,


Only the breeze can touch the bird and Veerji will get that bird very soon…

Ravi whatever u have written is simply amazing and the pics are very beautifully placed…

Specially the picture in which you are looking for the BIRD…
YOUR BIRD
Your eyes show your search and desire…for her…

It’s really great to have u as my friend…

Love
MANI